Instead of burning the bra I bought at Penney’s, I decided to take it back. I went to the Lingerine Department as I did the day before and ask the woman if I could return it. She said Yes and I decided to look around for a different one in a smaller size, like a 38B instead of the 42B I had bought originally. I found a demi-cup push-up like I had wanted originally and explained to her that with a bra extender, I was already wearing a 36B. She confirmed that with the extender that the 38B should work. I am feeling bathed in pure joy.
After that little victory, I decided to go to WalMart where I could not only shop for more clothes, I could buy food as well. Besides the food, I came home with another lacy bra, a camisole, some deep pink workout clothes and more socks.
I am finding that living as a woman even with my obvious old mans’ face is becoming easier because I am demonstrating my confidence. The checkout girl at WalMart, seeing all these womans clothes asked me if I was doing Christmas shopping and I just said “No, these are for me.” I count myself lucky to be able to just be Deanna, unabashed, confident and self-assured and with a man’s face yet. The more I express myself as Deanna, the easier it seems to get.
I think the next step is a legal name change and to consult with another doctor tomorrow.