Another little victory

Instead of burning the bra I bought at Penney’s, I decided to take it back.  I went to the Lingerine Department as I did the day before and ask the woman if I could return it.  She  said Yes and I decided to look around for a different one in a smaller size, like a 38B instead of the 42B I had bought originally.  I found a demi-cup push-up like I had wanted originally and explained to her that with a bra extender, I was already wearing a 36B.  She confirmed that with the extender that the 38B should work.  I am feeling bathed in pure joy.

After that little victory, I decided to go to WalMart where I could not only shop for more clothes, I could buy food as well.   Besides the food, I came home with another lacy bra, a camisole, some deep pink workout clothes and more socks.

I am finding that living as a woman even with my obvious old mans’ face is becoming easier because I am demonstrating my confidence. The checkout girl at WalMart, seeing all these womans clothes asked me if I was doing Christmas shopping and I just said “No, these are for me.”  I count myself lucky to be able to just be Deanna, unabashed, confident and self-assured and with a man’s face yet.  The more I express myself as Deanna, the easier it seems to get.

I think the next step is a legal name change and to consult with another doctor tomorrow.


About Deanna Joy Hallmark

I am a post-op transgender woman who has now completed transition and living my life as the woman I was born to be. I have been writing my blog, now titled "A Spy in the Enemy Camp - A transgender woman’s perspective from having lived as a man among men" since December 2011. Originally a record of my process and feelings in transition, last summer in 2013 it took on observations from both sides of the gender binary and now will also be looking at my past life pretending to be the man I never was and how it finally brought me to where I am today, the beautiful intelligent woman I had always believed I should have been since I was little.
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